Spot of Tea

Still ...

tired.  Still queasy.  Still eating gingersnaps and drinking gingerale to help the queasies.  Still looking for maternity pants that fit. 

Went shopping on Saturday to the Motherhood store and to some other stores that I know carry maternity clothes.  The selection for plus size is REALLY, REALLY limited.  Ok, I know I'm fat but do I have to look frumpy too just because I'm preggers????  I have this feeling that I'm going to be getting HUGE this pregnancy and I'll look like a beached whale in short order.  Add to that ugly, awful clothes and hormonal oversurge ... yeah, I'm feeling just lovely right about now.  Anyway, I tried on a few different versions of maternity pants and I'm not quite big enough for them yet.  My regular pants are too snug and uncomfy but the maternity are baggy and uncomfy.  I finally got out those "too big" pants from before my last weight loss and think the pants will fill the gap for at least a few weeks.  Here's hoping I'll have better luck doing some maternity shopping online now that I know what sizes are like.

Didn't do much over the weekend other than the short shopping trip and a short visit to the parents for dinner.  Took plenty of naps, tried to eat well, did a little house work.  I think I would be happy to nap every couple of hours at the moment.  Seems like I'm always tired but I'm not sleeping well at night.  Can't seem to find a comfy position to sleep in.  If I lay on one side too long my shoulder and hip hurts, then I roll-over to the other side and the same thing happens.

Well, I did say that if I ever got pregnant again I wanted to enjoy the entire experience.  It's about time I start enjoying it, including the things that aren't really all that enjoyable.  So now I'm off to nibble a couple of gingersnaps and sip on a little gingerale to enjoy these lovely queasies.

Yeah!

My OB appointment went wonderfully today!  That means my blood pressure is good.  My sugar is good.  All of those tests I've been taking have come back with "better than expected" results.  How great is that?  And I don't have to go to the dr.s for two weeks.  Yep, two whole weeks without having a dr.s appointment or test, yippee!

So last night I picked myself up a little goodie - the AMM Tote-ally Cool Tote in Kiwi.  Can't wait to fill it up will all my stuff.  It will be sooooo much easier to take to the crop than all the big stuff I usually take.  I'm trying to stream-line a little.  Thinking of future crops and dragging all that stuff around while pregnant.  I also did a little shopping for my secret cupid Target over at 2Peas Pub.  I'm almost done, just a few little goodies to add and it'll be ready to go out.

Ultrasound #1

Today was the first ultrasound for this pregnancy.  And it was pretty interesting.  Found out I'm approximately 6 weeks and 6 days pregnant.  Now that is much less than was originally calculated, 12 weeks.  For some reason the 6 weeks seems about right to me though.  I'm still way too tired and still have more than a little queasy feelings to be at 12/13 weeks.  The baby had a good heart beat (117-125 bpm).  It was kinda cool to see everything at such an early stage.  The US photo I got shows a little sac and a stick like figure.  DH looked at it and said ... "Oh.  That little stick is it?"

I go to the OB again on Wednesday.  Hoping that my blood pressure is down and so is my sugar.  We'll see how everything goes and how all the appointments will change now that we have a "real" idea as to how far along I am.

One thing I will have to do is cut back on the hours I'm working at Memory Lane.  I love working there but it is getting more and more difficult to keep up there after working at my regular job when I'm so tired from the pregnancy.  And I have a feeling that the OB is going to want me to take it as easy as possible.  A bummer but I need to do what is best for me and baby now.

Haven't had a chance to do much scrappin' lately, what with DD's birthday party, finding out I'm 'expecting', all the tests, all the dr.s appointments, and working.  I'm hoping that I'll get the chance to get some of the new photos done soon.  But since I'm tired all the time that doesn't look to promising any time in the next few weeks.  I do have some really neat layouts I've sketched up that I'm just itching to work on.  I started working on some HOF stuff but once I found out about the baby I decided I just couldn't do it all.  So I've got these ideas that just need to get made into layouts.  Maybe this weekend I'll get a little time to play.

High Risk

Oh the anxiety the sound of those two words cause when put in front of "pregnancy".  I knew I would fall into the high-risk category but was so hoping that all the necessary appointments and such would happen a little later.  Instead we started off my first OB appointment by answering the typical pregnancy questions, going over the latest lab results, scheduling more labs to be done and planning on when I would be seeing the high-risk specialist.  They want to contact them right away since my blood pressure is already a little on the high side.  I think DD's pregnancy was so much easier, especially since I only knew about it for 13 hours.

I've got to really keep on top of my eating at the moment.  I'm not allowed to exercise until the doctor looks over the results from my 2004 EKG results.  She thinks there is a possiblity that I have a heart murmur.  Well, better to know what we have to deal with early so we can deal with it.  I am actually feeling very good, a little tired but good.  Keep feeling like I already need maternity pants though, everything is a little tight around the middle.  I may actually get to wear maternity clothes this time, kinda exciting in an odd sort of way.

Tomorrow I go for some lab work and start my 24 hours urine test for sugar, too much fun - blah.  And Monday I go for my ultrasound, yeah!!  Then Wednesday I go back to doc's to go over my latest lab results and check my blood pressure.  I have a feeling I'll be seeing alot of doctors in the next, um, 6 months or so.

Big News

Got some great, exciting, thrilling news yesterday  ...  I'm pregnant!  Yep, that's right, we're going to have baby #2.  I went to my ob/gyn yesterday for a 3 month follow-up and mentioned some symptoms I was having, which prompted a pregnancy test.  Showed up positive immediately.  Yeah!  Doc figures I'm about 12 weeks but we'll find out more as we go along.  Had a TON of blood tests this morning, was starving by the time I got to work since I had to fast for 12 hours.  Got a ob appointment tomorrow and an ultrasound on Monday.

It seems kinda weird knowing that I'm pregnant.  I didn't know with DD until 13 hours before the emergency C-section.  (yeah, I'm one of those women you hear about not knowing they are pregnant - read the entire story HERE )  I will actually get to enjoy being pregnant and go thru all of the stages and know it.  Very exciting.  I'll even be getting into maternity clothes, soon by the looks of it.

We were busy on the phone last night telling everyone.  The most common reaction was surprise.  The family is excited but they (including us) didn't think we'd have another one even though we have been trying for a couple of years now.   DD is three today and we started trying when she was about a year old.  Part of me can't believe I'm going to have a baby at 39, and DH is going to be 50.  But here we are.  And we are so thrilled.

The Challenge

This is an interesting blog challenge, given by Sophia C. over at 2Peas Pub.  List 10 things you like about yourself.  You wouldn't think it is a challenge but it really is.  I had a hard time coming up with 10 things.  But here they are at any rate.

1. My eyes - love that they are blue flecked with grey and black
2. My smile - it's not perfect or pretty but it is real
3. My hair color - since I dyed it for years this is a new thing for me, like how it is dark brown with reddish hints and hi-lights
4. My tiny feet - I can find cool shoes pretty easily
5. My baking ability - can't cook dinner but I can wow with dessert
6. My work ethic - not only do I like it but I'm proud of it
7. My creative streak - I like being creative and trying new crafts and projects
8. My positive outlook - I tend to look at life with a positive attitude
9. My handwriting - really more my printing than 'writing', years of drafting classes
10. My hands - small and neat, just wish I could get my nails to grow consistently

I didn't list anything to do with relationships, just things directly about me.  Why is it so hard to find things we like about ourselves?  Or even see these things.  I really had to think about these things and some of them are pretty inane or silly.  But I'm happy I took the time to do this.  Makes me realize that I need to stop being so hard on myself and like me for just being me.

Late Nights and Early Mornings

I know the old saying goes "early to bed, early to rise" makes you healthy, wealthy and wise.  I'm doing okay with the early to rise part but the early to bed, hmm, not so much.

I don't really have anything to say, impart, tell, mention or any of that.  Just wanted to put a little blurb out that I'm still around, haven't gotten lost or fallen off the face of the planet.  I'm hoping to get some scrappin' done soon.  I'm hoping to have a great tea party birthday party for DD's 3rd birthday very soon.  I'm hoping to get caught up on some sleep maybe tonight or tomorrow night or this weekend or ... sometime in the near future.  I'm hoping to get a chance to do a photo shoot of DD.  I'm hoping to finish putting the Christmas decorations away (yes, they are down and packed in boxes but the boxes are still sitting in my living room so they aren't technically 'away' yet).

Here's hoping you all have a great day!

New Year Intentions

This year I've decide to do "Intentions" rather than resolutions.  I've made them a little general but plan on breaking them down into goals that I can realistically work on achieving.  Like this idea a whole lot better.  So without further ado, here are my intentions ...

1. I intend to make my health a top priority this year.
2. I intend to exercise 3 times each week.
3. I intend to spend time daily with God.
4. I intend to become more involved with our church.
5. I intend to have a weekly date night with my husband.
6. I intend to have a weekly special day with my daughter.
7. I intend to FLY this year and use the principles Flylady teaches.
8. I intend to keep on budget this year.
9. I intend to express my creativity more often this year.
10. I intend to encourage others creativity, including my daughters and husbands.

This year I've decided to work on me as an overall package.  Address the different aspects of me.  I included intentions for my many areas - body, spirit, heart and mind.  Notice I didn't say I'm going to lose that weight - of course I need to lose weight - instead I put the focus where it belongs, on my health.  I want to find the right priorities for me, not someone else with a different life or what everyone else is telling me my priorities should be.  I know I'll be able to incorporate these intentions into my life and stick to them.  And just imagine the possiblities when I do.

After the Holidays

We now resume our regularly scheduled life ...

Is it just me or do the 'holidays' throw everything out of whack for other people too?  Now don't get me wrong, I love the 'holidays' and the family gatherings and wonderful traditions but ... part of me is sooooo glad to be back on schedule.  I know it is the boring old routine of getting ready for work, going to work, working, coming home from work, working around the house, going to bed then doing it all over the next day.  Maybe it is just having an entire week to relax, play, eat and sleep without the "I should be busy doing something around here" guilt that I can't get used to.  Either way, I'm glad I'm back on schedule and making good time, going nowhere of course but it's still good time.

We had a great Christmas and a super New Year's Eve filled with family, friends and lots of traditions - both new and old.  DD got a ton of stuff, including some really unexpected gifts from Gran & Gramp (kiddie digital camera, kiddie boom box & CD's).  I got a marvy selection of classical CD's and a DVD of one of my all time fav movies - Seven Brides for Seven Brothers.  DH, my brother and my dad all got Gift Cards from Cabela's and a day trip to the actual store in our state with lunch included - they can't wait to go.  Now I've just got to find places to put all the new stuff.  Good thing one of my goals for this year is to get and keep the house more organized. :)

I've been trying to determine my New Year's Resolutions and come up with the same old thing.  So I'm trying a new tactic.  I'll post it when I figure out how I'm going to document it.  Maybe I'll stick to it longer than the first week this time.